iPod wit blogging? Yes please

Oh I am so excited can write on My blog wit my iPod heck yea figured I'd share this with everyone, maybe I'll learn how to do this, instead of the computer cuz I really don't have time to sit down and do all that :(

Short and Sweet

So today, I laid around the house with ross and of course he was fussy from his teeth and just cranky poor lil guy so i had to give him extra loving and he wanted to be held all day.. Im still sick so i went to moms and she helped out with him and i took a break.. Boy im gettin sick of these sinus infections i keep getting.. Ross is gettin so so so SO big. Its breakin my heart.. :( he gonna be crawling in like 3 months or less and i am gonna cry when he starts!!! 

 (watching mommy)

Shew... this week we are gonna try and get our yard sale stuff together so we can have one.. it will be like a 3 family yard sale.. shew! I am just gonna die this week.. why im sittin here ross is sleeping in his play pen, corey cooking some yummy deer meat frying it in and puttin bbq sauce on it and its so good.. and we can hear fireworks.. I aint to big on fireworks this year.. maybe ross will like them next year. doubtful but who knows:)  and sunday we are having a bbq, our next door neighbors Carl and Sharon, Carl is such a great cook on a grill and Sharon is good cookin the crazy stuff.. I was happy being pregnant they would cook me food almost every weekend..

lol i love this pic he holding on so he can watch the water and bubbles he is truly a momma boy.. well i guess this is all for today.. Its short i know.. shame on me :) 

xoxooxoxoxox

Relaxing

This Morning is Relax Mode.

Bubba and I are takin it very easy, since this is the 1st day off in FOREVER for me! So im just gonna take it easy, still debatin if i want to clean lol.. it needs it but i may let it go and clean tonite. Ive had this nasty cold since last week and its killing me, i dunno why i always get them every two months but this is gettin OLD big time.. 

(how can u not love that face)

This is what bubba doing today.. lol.. he just a doll face! so i guess where have tacos so that means all i got to do is cook the meat and thats all im doing :)

Stephanie Carroll

Stephanie the age of 21, Was taken from us on May 9th 2011. 

She was a Daughter,Mother,Step Sister.

At the funeral they played "Down by the River" and steph named her son by that song "River" :) 

They always played If I die young -the band perry.. -It was one of her fav songs.

I busted out in tears when they played this... 

 

 (i had pics of her but we had boobs poppin out)

Today I went to Hohenwald Tn, to steph Funeral....

I have known her for a year this month, and her mom is my mom best friend, Kim and my mom are always together or on the phone and when I was pregnant we all four would go out to eat on there lunch break or when i would work in the office, She gave all the stuff from her baby like the crib, changing table,glider,tub, play pen all kinds of stuff to me... Steph and me got to be pretty good friends. But we got into a fight So I really never talked to her until Easter Dinner and Corey Bday last month. Then she called me to tell me what time to met at kim bday party and we finally talked about everything and made up.. And since ill be workin in the nurseone teamone office and she was just gonna train me and help me since ive never really worked in office doing billing and etc,and she said she would help me out and make sure i add her back on Facebook :( (i couldn't ever find her on Facebook, still cant)  But i wanted to talk about this and i think it really helped.. SIGH.....

 

Greys all the way....

So guess FREAKIN WHAT :) 

Greys Anatomy comes on  TONIGHT and i am sOOOOOOOOOOO excited!! Me and Tracy (aka Sis/pimp Momma, u would understand if u seen her car) have been cussin them out every Thursday night since they showed all that drama and musically and all that jazz like 3 freakin a weeks ago.. GEEZ they had to know us FANS would be ticked off.. I mean come on.. u cant just not show us the baby being that small then show us something gonna happen like BIG time on the next episode, (to me sounds like something is gonna happen to the baby) but u cant do that... its like a guy turning u on and walkin out the door sayin ill be back in 3 weeks so be ready... its evil and ohhh so worng.!!!!! haha.. greys anatomy is like sex and drugs and sweets to me and on that note let me explain.. Tracy let me borrow all the seasons that had came out like there was four i think and corey said i didnt come out of my room or sleep til it was the last cd, and when tracy 1st let me watch them, it was rough.. i was so addicted to it i wouldnt shower for like 2 or 3 days on my days off like i never seen the sun lol.. so this is like drugs and sex to me when i say that...and corey hated it back then he didnt care to much about them, but he did watch them with me and just complained about it hehe like a man right haha.. lol.. and this was like 2 or 3 years ago.. (maybe?) but let me tell ya, no one talked to me or seen me unles they came to my room.. then the other season of dvds came out and i was prego and let me tell ya.. thats all i did.. me and corey in bed, watching dvd after dvd... shew.. its was hardcore.. and he of-course corey is in love with it and where he dont get to watch them alot he cant stand it if something happens and he didnt see it  and there talkin about it or he is lost haha to freakin cute ;) i know... 

 

I just love them!!! 

 Are They just not flipping cute! And let me tell ya they NEED a baby!! if i have to let them borrow my son it can be done and will :)... I want them to be happy :( baby baby now come on!

Im tellin yall, im hard core!

It just breaks my heart... I know they have to have some drama and all but come on.. we all knew what was gonna happen.. when she said the word "marry" i was like shit shit shit... there gonna wrecK! AZ LOOK BACK ON THAT ROAD UGH(lol i was screamin that :/.... )!!!! .. :( i want happy moments for now on freakin boo whooo

 I tell ya what... I would have there babies in a heart beat... hahaha corey said as long as he gets to share me he is okay wit it haha.. ;) just look at them... shew..!!! Mcdreamy and Mcsteamy HELLO

<3.

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Next subject is.......

Linking up with Leigh Ashley for Wee Bit Wednesday, :)

Late... I know... rather be late then never

{one} have you ever been stuck in an elevator?I cant say i have.  

{two} have you ever ridden on an elephant?Yes me and my brother did when we was little  

{three} have you ever met a well known celebrity?Yes i have :) he was is so so good looking and sings the best love songs.. He signed my cd's with my nickname Roz :) Dave Barnes 

Is he not Yummy :)  

  Sexy right?

(i could only find the ones on my myspace :( so there kinda crappy)

{four} do you have any food allergies?nope...  

{five} do you know how to sew?Oh yea.. me and mom use to sew all the time... and once i figured it out, i went to town with it.. i can do  almost anything on a sewing machine too..

{six} did you get an allowance when you were young?i think i got up to twenty bucks a week haha not really i got what i wanted but i really didnt care about all that stuff i just wanted a cold drink with my lunch or a choc milk. everyone said i was prego cuz thats all i every drank in school.. and that was about it..my mom just always went and got what every i wanted but i wasnt really into all that pretty stuff in high school.. just boys boys boys hehe..

{seven} how often do you fill up your gas tank?about 30 or 40 a week. just depends  

{eight} have you ever been stung by a jelly fish?nope

{nine} have you ever been robbed?Yes.... and let me tell u.. u feel like someone has been in ur bubble and busted it. they took my moms gun outta her purse and went threw all of our gun cases we have a big ole safe gotta have a code and a key and this was morning time like around 9 or so.. my cousin and his wife was in my bed sleepin down stairs and they went to ihop and i just got home and i went and slept with gary and mom and my step dad dont wake up til 11 or so on the wkds.. so yea.. it was pretty shitty.. and they had robbed almost everyone around us.. they even went threw my panty's sick right! but they just took my moms car keys i think it was and her gun and later it was found in cookeville boat docks and that was bout it..  

{ten} what is the worst haircut you’ve ever had?Okay.... lol.. I think i was in 7th grade or 6th... and my mom did all my hair cuts.... and. umm.. lets just say she is never allowed to touch my hair again with any kind of blade known to man kind.. we will leave it at that note..  xoxoxo.<3

This and some of That.....

I'm linking up with Krystal (hehe) to share a Wee Bit about me!

{one} have you ever fainted? When i was a little my dog died and i cried so hard i passed out if that counts

{two} what is your favorite casino game? I really dont know how to play casino games unless skip bo and phase 10 counts hehe if those are casino games lol

{three} do you have a good sense of direction? Oh yea.. Going to new patients houses all the time, ive been to chicken branch and let me tell ya that was a hard one.. took me 3hrs to find it since they had a road closed had to find another way so im pretty good if they give me the road name and whats in there yard hehe.. some live in the BFE and my gps some times dont work on them back roads..

{four} laptop or desktop?Laptop mine broke and i broke corey screen on it like 3 or 4 yrs ago so we have a big screen for it lol.. redneck all the way haha

{five} what is your go-to hair style when having a bad hair day? up in a bun or pony tail..

{six} do you read the newspaper on a daily basis? lol at my patients house once a week haha

{seven} do you have a favorite celebrity chef? Paula Deen, me and tracy love her to death.. im tryin to find on of her recipes for pork chops and pineapple and something else.. my mom is a BIG Martha Stewart fan, she has like tons of books and she always makes us get her new ones once they hit the shelf's.. and she is crafty too.. :)

{eight} what TV show would you like to make a guest appearance on? Umm... Hmmmm... Greys Anatomy all the way!!! Me and Mc steamy could have a make out party haha.. not really bout sounded really good :-)

{nine} do you have satellite radio in your car? Ah i dont really need that.. I just usually listen to Taylor Swift and my new song I LOVE to Rock out is Eric Church Drink a little Drink Smoke a little Smoke--- Windows down and loud as it can go puts me in a GREAT Mood..

{ten} what was the last movie that made you cry? Ah Me and Tracy have movie nite every sunday and we usually do something after that but i really cant remember if i have cried at any here lately

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Well here is a Update whats going on in my Sweet lil life....

 

Well Corey and I have finally decided a date on signing our marriage license MAY 15TH, and Corey is Pickin the date of our Wedding which Im scared if he dont get decide on a Date real soon im gonna have to pick it myself lol Men.. Go Figure.. There is alot of Change fixin to be happening! Cant tell anyone yet but im excited if it follows threw.. Then I got to get some ideas on Ross 3months Pics. He is gettin so big its unreal :) He smiles so big now and laughin now and he talks to ya like crazy, he just telling us his stories and as his godfather says.. Its hard to get him smile for me but corey can always get him to smile.. He just looks at me like im stupid lol.. He has learned how to turn his head side to side so thats his new thing right now that he loves to do.. So thats what been going on for the past 2wks..Fun i know right hehe :) Im so blessd to have a sweet lil boy and Wonderful Soon to be HUSBAND, Life is good right now.. so lets see whats gonna happen to screw that up.. But it just makes us stronger.. So im okay with it haha..

Couple post's i stole from krystal..

Get To Know You Q's and A's!

Well I took this from Krystal lol.. She is the best blogger in the world so you should so click on her name and so like read it (hehe, i get everything from her. Maybe years from now ill blog like her.. haha i dont think i can but i will keep tryin and thinkin it)

1. what inspires you? My son and soon to be husband, friends and family

2. what was the last thing you bought yourself? Those stickers nail things, me and tracy got matchin set :)

3. would you rather watch a movie in a theater or from the comfort of your own home? My home.. I love cuddling up with corey and watchin movies... and usually me and tracy have movie nites on the weekend now.. :)

4. household chore you don't mind doing? Cleanin the kitchen after i get done fussin on the boys.. They are suppose to keep the sink empty lmao.. it never happens though

5. coffee or tea?Sweet tea, love it..!!

6. what could you eat every day and not get sick of??  pork chops and taters and corn.. love it!!!

7. what's the last book you read? ummm i just read magazines mostly!

8. do you think you "look" your age? Yea but everyone says i look younger :) works with me!!
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I'm loving a whole lot this Wednesday!

I'm loving when i come home from work i get to cuddle with my lil man!! makes me so happy when i see him

I'm loving the fact that im gettin my hair done in highlights sunday

I'm lovingthat greys comes on tonight!!

I'm loving my family everyday

I'm loving  how my son is growin up and holdin his head up :) he will be 2months tomorrow

I'm loving(tracy) my precious nephew Ross (thought she should have one too hehe since im on the phone with her why im cleanin and doin this..)

I'm loving my job is only 15mins away :)

I'm loving my paychecks hehe

I'm loving the fact now i can take pics of my son and not my belly :)

I'm loving my soon to husband, he is my rock!

I'm loving my family and friends and how they help out and destroy my house every nite lol

I'm Loving my home phone and internet.. we should have done this along time ago...

I'm loving my sweet lil life now as a mommy and soon to be wife in the fall.. :) melts and warms my heart everyday i come home to my family...

Figured i would steal this from Krystal.. BIG FAN!!!

Labor and After!

Well I am gonna blog about my labor and all the details! Wooohooo i bet people cant wait right haha...
                                               (Just a warning! This is very long...)
  
   Well Monday Jan 31st I woke up havin contractions at 3am, So I had a App at 950 so i just wanted to wait it out... So around 7am i thought my water broke but it was a high leak the hospital said and i was going into labor i was 3cm and 60% thinned out but they couldnt do nething til my water broke and i was dilated more. so I went to the MD and they gave me a scrib to either progress it if it was labor or if it was pre labor it would stop. So this pill knocked my ass out! Corey was working on his truck and he was alllll nasty from it and my water line broke so everyone was tryin to get it fixed cause i had to do laudry cause i had really nothing to wear. So i took a nap and woke up at 3 in serve pain i was havin a contraction every 11 mins. So i was going to go to the hospital yet again thought my water broke. Ha so i told corey to hurry up with his truck cause I had lost my cellphone and we wasnt going any where til i found it. so it was in my coat on the dryer haha so Finally we got there and water did not break haha go figure 1st child let me remind u this hehe so they gave me a pain shot and was going to hold me for 2 hrs and see if it helps me dialate so i told corey to hurry up and go home and take a shower cause he was all black and all nasty and mom was with me so i was okay.... So at 755 i get a contraction and im on the phone with corey tellin him to hurry up and i had hang up so i could get control of this contraction and mom was rubbin my back and im doin my breathin and all of sudden it was like a damn fire hose of water coming outta me and i freaked out and started cryin (which i dont know why i started cryin) so it broke and mom is yellin her water broke (repeatin this)!!! Then everyone is running in the room then setting it up and gettin ready so i was yellin where the hell is corey and mom is callin everyone and go out to inform everyone, Everyone of mine and corey friends was in the waitin room and i mean everyone! (they all stayed for 12hrs) So now they give me some more meds for pain since i didnt want my epi just yet and he was at home still, and all that pain med did was make me feel drunk ha still felt the contractions very strong at this point. They was giving me antibiotics like nonstop, once a bag empty they would hang another one up and it took them hour to fine a juicy vein to stick me with my mom, she helped tooo hehe man those nurses loved my mom, lol they abused her, it was like my mom was my nurse too, she helped my nurse do everything. Then finally corey showed up! never so happier to see him! I was still tryin to get it in my head that my son was gonna be here by this time tomorrow and i was gettin kinda scared! So you know on greys anatomy April Kepner, well my nurse was just like her lol. Almost looked like her i thought! She was so sweet but she scared me towards the end when she stated she was askin everyone if these contractions, my v/s and his HR was normal and good!!!!! Yea so around 10 I finally got the epi after a long talk, me freakin out or gettin to weak to push at the end since ill be up all nite controlling the contractions, so i decided better not chance it so I went ahead and got the epi! So got the epi and it made me so sick i threw up every hr it seemed like! I was throwin up and every time i did that water was comin outta me it was great! I was miserable! Poor mom and corey would sleep and take turns on the pull out bed lol they was gettin along so great i couldnt believe it! Everyone outside was still there and everyone was sleepin Tracy stated there was like 3 boys on top of each other sleepin on a couch haha, then she stated when they was up they was gettin into trouble every 5mins and some almost got kicked out haha and my darling brother was one of them so funny i laughed every time tracy txted me to tell me about them or corey tellin me, but I say they was havin some fun, Someone gave them games to play too!  Then Around 2am to 4 i started gettin some feelin back and figured ehhhhh its prolly the way im layin so whatever, Then around 5 they came in checked my temp i had a temp and said im gonna be pushin soon and they was callin my midwife to come. and of course mom was already out there tellin everyone wat was going on.. And I had stopped dialting and i was at a 9cm.

       Then 6am came and mom was out there still and I was fixin to start pushin, corey had to call her to get back in there my midwife checked me and my cervix had swelled up and i was still at 9cm, lol. I started pushin and nothing was happening with him besides the fact my o2 dropped in the 70s and 60s and he was losin oxygen when it dropped then they couldnt find his Heart beat, so they had to that wire thing on his head and still was havin a hard time, then i was throwin up why i was pushin and had that oxygen mask on. that was hard lol, Then they decided to do a emergency C-Section..... I kept thinkin hell no so why they was callin Dr.C I kept pushin for 15mins!!  Finally after a Hour and 30 mins of pushin he was finally here!!! He had a temp of 102.3 he was 6pds and 10 oz and 19" :) Never oh so Happy!!! And the whole time i was so worried about him when they was checkin him out... His Cord was not long at all like maybe a ruler size...

    Now its time to go in my other room... I got up to walk to the bathroom and the nurse is like ummmmm your epi came out!! I was thinkin well i told u i was gettin feeling bitch said she just blocked it... hmmmmm... That was great let me tell ya... but my joy is here and thats all matters now!!!! My Doctor that i picked came and checked him out his temp was down, he had one cause i was running one and he was a perfect lil boy in my eyes :) But we had to stay for 48hrs which sucked!

                                                             he is mommy lil man :)
      
           Ross will be 2 mths  friday.. Its going by so slow hehe..

Going back to work.....

Well I have finally went back to work... I am working Monday thru Saturday, I am so so so glade to be going back to work, i mean dont get me wrong i have loved every sec of the day i have spent with my son since he been born Ive been gettin the baby blues i think and gettin stressed from being home 24/7 and the only time ive been gettin out is when i go to our doc's app, and grocery shopping thats about it oh we all went out and had couple drinks last month and mom watched ross or corey mom had.. Gas is so high and i rather spend my money on my son then gas..

My hours will be monday thru friday 9 to 4 and Miss Tiffani will watch him for a hour in half cause corey will be home then leaves for work after 2 and i will be only 15 mins away like no joke and Saturday will be 8 to 1 then go home and chill then go back 4 to 7 or 8 i think so corey will have him saturday or mom will if he has to work but he only had 1 wkd off this month.. I miss ross so much since i have been workin this wkd and today, I feel so awful leaving him, like i feel like a bad mom going to work and feel bad for corey watchin him lol i dunno why but corey loves it.. Corey hasnt really got to spend any time with him, he has been workin over ten hours and wkds since he has been born so he dont get home till like lil after 2am and ross is already in bed and ive been doing nite feedings since he works and he usually so wore out poor baby :( and he dont get up till around 12 then he has to get ready and go back to work and he does one feeding and usually ross takes hiz nap after that(i take that back when ross was born he got to stay home for a week with us).

This is gonna be hard not seeing corey :( but there work is fixin to be slowing down there running out of shipments so the next couple of weeks he wont be workin as much so he can spend time with lil man.. Corey loves it, he said today he put him in the swing and he watched them play the xbox for a hour and he said ross was just playin with his tongue, he has learned how to put his feet together and play with them so he was doing that. Saturday was the 1st time he got to see ross smile and laugh in person, corey said it just melted his heart :) he is such a good daddy, usually the only way he gets to see him smile is when i take pics and send it to him at work :( Im glade corey has got to spend time with him maybe going to work and him slowin work down will be good so he can spend time wit him... 

Ross loves bath time so so so much.. When he starts gettin fussy at nite i will give him a bath and he will stop cryin once he hits that water and starts playin. He learned that when he kicks his feet he makes splashes and he just smiles so big when he does it, thats when he learned how to but his feet together, i usually let bath time last along time so we stay in the water about 10 mins or when its starts gettin cold and boy he hates it when he gets out lol gotta give him extra loving time lol.. He is such a good baby! He was gettin a lil colic with the drop in bottles so i changed to the mams and there the best bottles every!!!!!! the bubbles just disappear in like 10 secs they have some kind of vent thing and its really cool and they helped with his colic where he aint got it any more, i started puttin gas drops and rice stuff in his bottles now, he was drinkin 6oz and he wuld spit it all up it seemed like so i started doing that and he dont spit up hardle any and he acts fuller now and he drinks almost 4 1/2 oz now. I had got alot of mommy help makin sure rice would be a good and okay for him and it wouldnt hurt him and some moms start feedin there kids with rice by spoon when they was 2months. My mother said its a awful thing giving a baby rice that young and he will lose weight and wont eat any cause he will feel full and wont eat the rest of his bottle and she just threw a big fit about it... I love my mom to death but it just makes me so damn mad, her gettin so upset what i do with him when she wanted me to abort him it just breaks my heart thinkin about it. (startin to get some tears) I just dont understand how u can abort a baby, we got in some big fights about that, my brother had to break us up couple times then i finally moved out with corey and never looked back. We didnt talk for the longest time it seemed like and if we did it was about work. I just dont understand how she can be all about him and worry about him so much and when she 1st found out she didnt want him to be here sayin it would be to hard for me.. oh man i have to change the subject its breakin my heart, we wasnt a mistake either and i think that pisses her off to, me wantin to start a life wit corey and have a baby..... :(

But i figured i would get on here and let some steam off and i feel so much better... shew.! Now i gotta get this house clean why lil man is asleep cause im going to bed early and my phone is pretty much in the grave yard today. oh well :) We have a house phone now. I dont know why we didnt get one sooner, i guess me bitching and running to mom all the time started gettin to corey... :) 

<3 No one is perfect and everyone has flaws but in my eyes its perfect, we have road blocks but it just makes us a stronger family :)

My sweet life

Ive been in love with Pink lou lou blog and I am in love with all her blogs.. She has the coolest stuff and im a true fan. and i seen she done a blog on her purse and so did krystal and i want one now.. I know im a copy cat and i will admit it no shame! And ive been takin pics on our camera and still trying to learn how to work that... I just figured out how to take the flash off lol and takin pictures why things are moving. hehe 

  I took the pic but corey did the photo shop cuz i aint got a feaking clue how to work that thing its so confusin and it the 2011 one and it has so much stuff on it that i have no clue whats all of it... Aint he adorable though but any way here we go... lets see how silly this blog will be.. 

 I love this purse its so big I can pack all mine and bubba stuff and corey crap cause he cant keep anything in place lol I really dont know what he would do with out me sometimes. 

 

Just look how big the sucker is.. and Real Coach not fake at all.. 

 Alot right.. bella wanted to join the pictures and see what moma was doing with all her stuff dumped out hehe!

 love lipgloss but i dont remember the last time i have even wore ne of this.. 

Now makeup i love to death... but when i was pregnant i never wore it, so im tryin to get my routine and groove back.....

This is bubba stuff so far and my hair clip i threw in there.. I cant wait when i he gets bigger and my purse will turn into a diaper bag hehe. 

                                          Oh man did i remind yall i steal pens like there aint no tomorrow.. i will jack it      from you with out u knowing.. i have like 3 buckets at the house full of pens. hehe.. 
 

and my sons aunt bought me this why i prego with him for Christmas in my goody box.. oh how much i love my sweet tracy.. 

I have got so much crap.. and i always but all of bills on the fridge or in those.... and i love my big wallet that i got. love love love

So there wasnt really anything cool in that big ass bag but hey i tried.. 

But now lil man is up well i made daddy go get him up so i can leave and daddy is feeding him and i got to get ready still and got to get this house clean cause i go back to work tomorrow.. hopefully 7-2.. And im makin corey sell his truck he had some crazy people wantin to sell diamonds and a mustang crazy people.. 1200 bucks plz haha.. that truck has almost every freakin part on it new since we have had it... i hate that truck so much.. its a freakin gas hoss and bubba cant ride in it so why have it... So we will have a busy week.. and friday our son will be 2mths old and let me tell u it has went so damn slow im ready for him to be 4mths.. but he is sleepin for 4 hrs at nite and he dont every want to sleep during the day he will just take naps like a hour or two and thats it.. He is such a good baby!!!

haha love this face he done.. so cute... love it <3

Today is Friday: the day we fill blanks.

    My first fill in the blank friday..... I found on Krystal Bowman Blog :) Here we go

                                             1. I wish there was no worries in this world.


. 2. Yesterday I had to go to cookeville to the doctor then went got bubba ready to go to baby shower of jamie at the nursing home in celina, we had fun... I got to hold brody and seen lori 3 week son.. it was baby fever there hehe.. 

3. Today I will relax and do nothing. Im not cleanin, i am relaxin and waitin for corey to get off work and just maybe ill cook if he is lucky hehe :)

4. Tomorrow I will go to work then come for couple hours then go back to work then come home again and spend time with corey and our son :)

5. Maybe one day my kitchen and room will stay clean more then 24hrs 6. Someday i want to start savin money to build a house
 7. I love Charles and Corey so much words dont even come close
Wooohooo that was easy ;)

Baby Time! :)

My Ross will be here any day now, and im ready to go now! I will be 39 wks Sunday and I can not wait! All i feel is him kicking me or pushin were I cant breathe and let me tell ya that's hard for a big girl like me losing some air.. Girl has got have some Oxygen!  No one tells u all the hard things and how u have to change the way you use to do things, like simple things! Like rolling over seems so easy when ur belly aint got a hog in it :) haha.. Either Corey has to help me roll over, and usually i just grab hiz arm (like a side bar in a bathroom)and pulls me, and he is so use to it now he really dont wake up or im outta air when i do this.Then there is the way u walk they call it the "waddle" well let me tell u why we waddle cause it feels like something is fallin out and walkin normal is outta the question when a head is pushin down on ur "stuff"! Then u got ur basic peeing every 5 secs, hands and feet tingling cause he is layin on ur nerves, feet swellings were no shoes fit me nemore, the hot and cold flashes, mood swings like crazy, and getting mad or crying for just no reason at all cause all of sudden ur sad cause he looked at me wrong. Being pregnant has been great til Now! I had my back pain the whole time, cause i cant take my reg meds for it so this took alot of gettin use to and im praying to god that those meds that i was on does not hurt him! But when u take Meds for ur back for 5 yrs on a daily base and cold turkey it, is really hard! im not talkin about pain pills just to state that i didnt take them, but i did have to when my knee died on me. that was the worst pain in the world. So i dealt wit this pain from my back this whole prego time and now the pain is where i need a pain pill and some jack and coke and nething else u can find cause im in pain every sec of the day with my pain level a 8 and it sucks ass when u cant take nething. But ne wayz I still dont have the house the way i want it so hopefully i can get mom or tracy to help this weekend. we still got all the wood work crap around and carpet crap and all of that will be gone tomorrow!



      So when I have my son (Pray he will be healthy) Corey gets a week off at work so he gets to stay with me and help out cause this will prolly be the hardest thing every with no sleep! I love my sleep more then nething and with newborns every 2-3 hrs of sleep is a good baby! I know how to raise a baby up to 8months then im lost haha.! I caught myself helping out richard today with his daughter, she is spoiled to the T and so pretty and funny oh she is a smart baby, 7mths old and says mamamamamama so cute when daddy dont do what she wants lol she knows what the NO means! So ive been teaching richard how to get her where she can play with herself and not cry wanting to be held, and ive been reading playin with there self with toys past 4 mths makes baby learn faster and u know the reg crap and its soothing for baby and not stressful when there always cryin. I already warned corey I WILL NOT HAVE A CRYING BABY WANTIN TO BE HELD 24/7, U can judge all u want but i know how it is when u sit them down in the swing, floor or nething and they wont stop crying no matter what and then u feel like a awful mother for lettin them cry so u go n pick up and then they stop and there goes that cooking or cleanin or watchin cartoons or just tryin to relax for 5mins. Thats not soothing for the baby,  puts so much stress i think on them, i want my son to learn how to play with toys and feel, touch, see colors, and texture and not have to be held every min of the day, ive been threw that! You cant do nething, u cant clean, cook, rest or nething unless he is sleeping. So I told Corey when Ross gets up to 4 mths or 5 and i start breakin him (which is the perfect time i already read about the right time and all the good ideas) then he can go outside or go to mommas if he cant handle cause it will be the hardest thing every, i mean unless u have had millions of kids maybe it gets better who knows. When i use to watch kids, mother taught me tricks for the screamin hold me stage. and my biggest fan was cassie, lol she will scream out u dont touch my baby he is fine! haha let him cry he is just sleepy no holdin ha love it.! she is a great mother!! I mean who would want someone always holdin there baby when they come over and then when they leave they sit him down and walk out the door then ur stuck with a cryin baby non stop that wants to be held and ur ready for a nerves break down.. My patient told him all kids of stuff to break them from it and tricks to do. She raised 4 kids! Thats alot of screamin and kickin and biting! So i pretty much know how a baby can change a person life its the can we handle it part that im worried about. but corey will be a great dad!

      So now we have almost finished Ross room. Mom is makin his curtains and molding has to be down and painted and then touch ups and it will be all done. but he wont be sleepin in there til he is clear from sids. I have such a wonderful bassinet that dana and tracy got me that will be right next to my bed and all i gotta do is roll over! no help from corey! HEHE  Oh hopefully these days will fly by.. just think in couple of days we will have our son! I thought really this day wuld never come i would never make it this far. lol i dunno but i didnt think it would have been this fast. well i am gonna shut up and go get ready cause my soon to be sister in law is in labor and  Makenna is fixin to make she big entrance in this world :) My computer is being gay well corey computer is and it wont let me adds pics on here.. STUPID THING!!!