Christmas dont feel the same.

Well its time to catch everyone up......
I'm gonna be 32 wks this Thursday, Ive been so busy its been unreal. Ive been trying to wash all of Ross outfits and i cant get all of them done. Seems like i get one bag done i have more people buy.. so far i have 2 basket full of his outfits and 8 more full gift bags to do.. SHEW! But I'm gonna start doing his blankets next. My Mooooods are every where, i cry all the time n i hate everything. I'm to the point where when i stand up its so hard to walk, with my back n him being so low. Dr. pippin is worried that Ross is pinching on my nerves or Ive done something to my back. What else...  We r gonna start doing ross room next month, we are gonna put hard wood floors in and paint and decor his room with baseball and everything. My mother is so great at that. she so crafty and im sooo not.
   Next subject is my house. My  house is so messy, i think were i have all of ross stuff in two rooms and i cant even walk in one of the rooms and where i keep getting stuff n i been working over 40hrs now i dont have time to clean.. I have 3 boys that live there most of the time. Well one lives there all the time but gary n tim stay there all the time, and boys are just messy and sloppy. But i say its better then living in a house with a guy that has OCD. id prolly die. We are puttin the christmas tree up since gary bday is this thursday. we always wait after but i waited til this week.. I was going to do a theme like pink n silver n thought.... hmmmm i best not. i want a christmas like i grew up with and ross can. Mom has all the ones we made from school on the tree, my cheerleading ones, if we went on a trip she always grabed ornaments, So Mom was watching her favorite person Martha and she made some cute ornaments with pics in so we are gonna do one with the usound of ross :) im excited and me n corey. Me and mom are gonna go threw ornaments today the ones i want to put up on our tree, She made sure i take the tree and keep it lol. its my leaning tree. i love it.! Me and Corey has always put up the christmas tree for 3 yrs now this is our 5th year. So I cant really say its our 1st christmas together cause every year we was talking around this time and we have been off and on for 4 or 5 yrs, But i love him to death our 1 year of being a "couple" we decided will be Jan 14th, Corey is a very real person which i love! He will not sugar coat nething unless he knows it will be better for him hehe. Me being Pregnant has made our relationship very strong. Me n Corey love fighting!!! We could fight over a shoe in the floor, we would tally up scores on who wins the most. But since ive been pregnant i cant handle it. So me fussing is about it. but if i state something oh boy he has to be right.. we argue about it until i get really mad n tell him what ever or just to shut up! Lol.. He is prolly the only guy ive dated that really gets me. but he knew what i was like and how i acted and he knew how to comfort n all that stuff for me before we even thought about dating in december! He has known every thing about me for yrs, I love it!! And i had told him i wanted a child in he made it happen! I love him for that. I have wanted a child for yrs! And when we got together i knew it was time. Yea this will be the hardest thing to raise a child and yes we will have problems down the road but that what makes us strong.! Ive been scared that ill love and pay so much more attention to Ross and forget about corey but corey said babe we will be a family! I think im gonna take a week or 2 wks off. im gonna pay my car off in may then ill slow work down. Having a son will push me to go to school and be a lpn and by then ill have my school money from my dad, Im hoping in 2 yrs i will be ready. When dads money comes in im gonna build a house and but the trailer on the other side of our land in ill rent it out. Mom has been giving me good ideas. I just can not wait nemore longer for ross.. I know it wont be healthy and there so many risk i have to keep reminding myself that.

Christmas....

It just doesnt feel like christmas. I told corey what i wanted and it will prolly be awhile cause we dont know which month ross will pick to be born on so im gonna wait for that gift and then the other one ill get in jan when we go to nashville. :) and gary and us decided not to do gifts and tracy gift is killing me..! I know she will love this gift but there all freakin sold out so i might have to change it or she will just have to wait til after christmas. ha and mom and my step dad hell i dunno what to get them. And mom is fixing to start her Bakin Cookies HEHE... im excited! We are still havin a christmas eve party which everyone loves. last time i got shit faced. but this year ill be takin pics. :) im excited! And for corey christmas gift he is gettin tools. all tools! thats a easy one Me and mom are makin some ornaments some are so cute. ill post them all when we are done. we made some baby ones. there so cute. so im gonna go home in a few and put the ones i have had over the years in put them on the christmas tree. :) maybe this will put me in the mood... Maybe ill do it tomorrow. I cant even hold my eyes open.. time for a nap :) 
   
          

Little bit of everything

Well Ive had a busy week... Ive went to do toenails with my mom which I loved.. Elderly people are so funny I miss working in the nursing home.. haha I think there like teenagers in the prime, out looking for some good ;) haha!!!  Its so fun having ur mom one of the main bosses at work. Everyone goes to her for ever thing.. It seems to be very stressful with all that drama... Bless her heart, and she had me all day yesterday, I'm already like a lil kid. she had to empty and sterile everything and i sat on the floor the whole time.. She is such a great mom! I would be so lost with out her.. I really dont know what i do with out her.. Its been so hard to grow up with out a dad but she did a GREAT job being 2 parents at once... Then i have my step dad.. Which dont get me wrong we have bad days just like my mother. but he has been be hide me and has helped me out every problem I have ever had in since he has been in my life with my mom.. But newayz I went to the doctor today cause my nurse told me i needed to call and tell them about my swelling, so i did and they made me come in that day.. I already knew what to do and i knew my bp and p was normal, its the swelling but i didnt think of my ankles from when i broke them and fractured and twisted all the rest well they are gonna be swelled, i was only up for 4 hrs and they were gettin swelled up so she wanted me to take it easy and i dont need to b on my feet that much. neways, Ross HR was 156 and my bp was lil high for me 120 or something im usually 108 over 56. Ozzy was so excited listening to hiz cousin Heart beat... He told everyone and loved makin that sound... Makes me want to have another one so ross can do that :) but ill wait 4 or 5 yrs down the road lol... he is such a angel.. man. that child never does or throws ne fits!

 But newayz.. Ive done nothing but lay in bed and watch Greys Anatomy season 6 thank u tracy! LOL i cried and balled like a kid that got her doll got took away! I know its a show but life happens like that. Thats why i try to tell everyone i love them. I tell my mom i love her everyday and my brother lol. but i had no what so every swelling. YAY me! Being pregnant has really changed me, Im more moody and everything drives me nuts, everything has to be done right then, i dunno why im like that. and i get so mad so easy! I guess that's the joys of it.. Ross kicks and punches like crazy and u can tell which is a kick and a hit. well i think this gonna be it...

New*/Baby stuff

Well this is gonna be my 1st, lol feels awkward in a way. Oh well..   Hmm what can we talk about..... Im fixing to be 24 weeks pregnant and my doctor changes it every visit well just couple days apart. I can not wait for the baby shower to be over with and we can start painting his room and setting everything up. My mom is making these air balloons for his room there green and brown all so cute.. It looks like this but diff colors and theme! Tracy is getting Ross all kind of things and she is being such a great friend with me acting all crazy but finally i don't care what goes on as long as i show up.  This is M Ann M artwork:

 

 I'm just so excited.! Im so glade everyone is coming around finally. This is what we wanted and now everyone is getting use to the fact that we will have a son. My mom was not so happy about it cause she says my back will be so hard on me and him and it will end up killing me at the end but it will be worth it! I hope everyone comes to the baby shower but if they don't its still okay cause i have everything, i have my family,Corey and friends. That's all I need. And boy am I getting big.. I would have never thought id be so freaking big. They say with boys u swell 10x more and u burn more calories. GO ME! I already had braxton hicks contractions twice. Well when u dont drink enough water u get dehydration and u can get braxton hicks! They wasn't really that bad i mean i knew what it was no doubt about that but i couldnt get them to stop and i was lifting too when they started and MD said where i was stressing my back out started the mix! So no more lifting for this girl!